Starting over

I guess I'm going to start blogging again so I can reach out to others who might be going through the same situation and we can create a support group. I will start off by explaining what happened in the past year that brought me to where I'm. Besides all the the bullshit of losing family and having your heart broken, what really brought me to this point is that I refuse to live in fear and misery. I have done that long enough and its time to finally embrace what I'm passionate about. Its easy to choose the safe path that thousands of others choose and have a stable career where you work for someone the rest of your life. I though I wanted to be a nurse, I buried my heart in order to achieve financial stability and never have to worry about making money, but you can never truly bury your passions they will always come back to haunt you. I guess its because I'm an immigrant daughter and all I  wanted was to make my parents proud, where I come from in Mexico being a designer isn't a reputable career, but more of a hobby. I always wanted to deny that my passion was designing and that what was really a true trade was nursing. I fought for so many years trying to convince myself that fashion was just a hobby, but I finally cracked. I was returning as a second semester nursing student and as I sat in the class I could feel an anxiety coming upon me, and thats when I knew I had to stop. If you don't believe in divine intervention well you should, this anxiety has only happened twice in a classroom. The first time was when I was barely starting to take my prerequisites to apply for the nursing program. Sometimes you try to convince your self that you want something but your body rejects it. I could feel my heart beat fast, as a struggled for breath, I thought I was having a heart attack. I stood up from the class and I could feel the tears falling from my eyes as I was set free. I cried and called my mom telling her I couldn't do it anymore, of course she told me to quit because she knew my true passion was fashion. It was such a surreal moment, like being born again, I was about to faint and don't even know how I got into the car. I'm not going to deny that going through this sudden change of life path hasn't been easy. At days I feel stressed and unable to focus, my thoughts are all over the place, and even discouraged. Thats why I need to get all these emotions out there to help me organize my thoughts, to help me heal, and mainly to help me focus on my goals. If anyone is reading out there and you have a similar story where you quite your day job to follow your dreams, I would love to hear from you! I will posting as often as possible, and if you have any questions please ask. My name is Pam and I'm the founder of Vox Populi, my work has been featured in Rookie Mag, Kelly Osbourne's blog, and Nylon Magazine. I wholesale for Dolls Kill, Pin-up girl clothing, and Nylon shop. You can purchase my items on my etsy shop:

www.voxpopulijewelry.etsy.com

Dreamer.